Yellow Light

I hope you know what you're getting yourself into. I am not the easiest person to be married with for the rest of your life. You've experienced how irrational I can get whenever I get jealous or disappointed. Even I would like to give myself a good beating for being so damn unreasonable.

I wish I could give you some manual on 'what to do when your annoying wife throws a bitch fit'. You would need that, believe me. But most importantly, you would need to learn to steel yourself up and stand your ground so that you can put in me in the right place, even if it means hurting my feelings. I'd surely fight back, anyway. And our married life will be chaotic and tumultuous and far from ideal, but it will also be exciting, passionate and extraordinary.

Whenever you think you've reached your breaking point and you've become so fed up with my bullcrap, just remember that you and i are meant to be. No matter how far and fast you try to run away, God will pull your tail back, pretty much like what He did to me. So don't even think about giving up on me, just as what you've done all these years, because no matter what happens, i would always find my way back to you. You are my home, and nobody forgets where they live.

I wouldn't even say sorry for being territorial or bossy or demanding or crazy, because I will always be. I will try to control it, but I will not change myself. Because all that I am, the wonderful and shitty stuff, is part and parcel of the woman that you chose to love.

One more thing, you may sometimes or most of the time doubt it, but I love you.

He sent you. And He sent me to you. That's your guarantee.

Now, would you still want to marry me?